Oh my. I hardly know where to begin.
I will begin with our trip to Job Corp yesterday. Sadness set in, which we were prepared for. We thought we knew how to deal with it.
We took her ( I will try to make this brief). (mind you, we did not experience ANY of this on our initial “tour” so I feel like we were slightly misguided)
Starts with a SEARCH of all her belongings as soon as we arrived. Now, I am thinking WHAT ON EARTH ARE THEY LOOKING FOR??? my daughter would have not brought anything inappropriate with her, let alone, I spent alot of time helping her pack. Hellooooo??? but regardless I overlooked this part as best I could. (and they did so kindly offer all the horrible details of things that they have confiscated in the past) WOW !!!!
Next, if there are two words I have never used to describe my daughter, it would be NAIVE or INNOCENT. She is a mature girl, possibly beyond her years in OUR world, but there??? she was niave, innocent and a fish out of water.
We were taken around by a very nice enough student, but one that came from a VERY different background than what we live. She was from Chicago, and I am fairly certain she had no parents and she was also 23 years old. I am sure SHE was doing just fine at Job Corps and was a good fit FOR HER.
She warned us in a nice , but blunt way of the possibilities of the “funny things” that often happen there. Still knowing we were this far into it, I tried once again, to look past this, although, they were VERY shocking possibilities, and this job of “overlooking” was getting increasingly harder for us.
Fast forward to the car, when we had to tell Madison good-bye and it was a very tearful one, and I expected that.
As soon as we backed up, my husband went into HYSTERICS . I have been with him for 28 years total, through alot and I have never ONCE witnessed him this distraught and emotional. NEVER. He is a man of very few words, and at this time, completely inconsolable.
Bad went to worse. The things we were promised to ease our minds were NOT happening once we drove out of sight. She was thrust into a very big world, all alone, and ignored. Hardly in with the “welcome committee” like we were told. I am not sure whos fault this was, but it was not one my husband (or I ) were prepared to deal with. She begged us from the road to turn around and come get her.
I did manage to get my distraught husband home, wrap our minds around what just took place and vowed to get a good night sleep, despite the situation. We did , I texted her last night until she literally fell asleep holding her phone, and before the sun came up this morning, my husband and his sister went back to get her. They are en route heading home as I type. I am working today and trust me , I needed to do just that.
I think Job Corps has a very good place in the world, but not in ours. I think for disadvantaged youth, with maybe no home life, or very little of one, this is a good and safer place for them to be. I have a daughter that comes from a very loving, functional, christian, and unbroken home. She needs to be here. We will figure out other options for education.
Two years ago, she hit a big bump in the road of life. She is a completely different person now, and she is a person I am not willing to live without, much less let her live in less than ideal surroundings. After the warnings that the tour guide told us about, it could have easily been detrimental to the progress she has made. I am not willing to take that chance. NO WAY.
What is next?? I don’t know. I pray to God that something comes our way and I believe it will. It is a true test of my faith to wait. God has a plan. Maybe I was trying to stand in the way of it? but out of every bad situation, something much better is in the making.
It is just a matter of getting through it, and we will do it…..together.
Thanks once again for hearing this out with me.